Emotions...

Per dictionary.com:

e·mo·tion [i-moh-shuhn] – noun
1.an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.

2.any of the feelings of joy, sorrow, fear, hate, love, etc.

3.any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., and usually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat or respiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.

4.an instance of this.

5.something that causes such a reaction: the powerful emotion of a great symphony.

But what really does it mean 'to show emotion'? Who is to define the 'right' emotion for a particular situation or event? Can your displayed emotion ever be wrong?

My best friend is having a baby; her second. Her oldest will be 2 in November. She is only a month so no additional crying will be heard for a while. Well, I will be the baby's god mother. I am very happy and proud to be the god mother but I can feel that my displayed emotion was not suffice to my best friend. What is the 'right' emotion of that of a about-to-be god mother?

One of her friends asked her if I was happy about being the god mother so she mentioned that question. I responded with 'How much emotion should one show about being a god mother?' And then I guessed I messed up when I added 'Should I be really over-the-top happy?' That question was based on many attributes: [1] I was supposed to be the god mother of the first, but due to assumptions, I was not. [2] I am not the god mother yet. The baby is not even born. [3] Me being a god mother is not a big deal. It just seems sort of normal so no estatic emotion is really needed at this point.

I guess an explanation to Number 3 is needed cause I don't want to come across as that five letter b-word... :)

I love my best friend to death. I have helped her in the past and will continue to help her and be there for her as much as needed in the future. I love her son with all of my heart, as well, and will forever be there for him. The same goes to the unborn child, my god child.

However, my friend gave an example using one of her cousins girlfriend. She said that the girl is estatic about her god child. The baby is always with her and she is constantly spoiling the baby. She even said that most people who serve as god parents are extremely happy about being god parents especially if they doesn't have any children. I don't have any children. Long story short.. After my excessive babling of trying to mend the situation, she hung up.. [Not slam the phone down, hung up in my face, but gave an excuse to get off the phone]

So that leads to 'What are the standards for emotions?'

Like I said, it is not like I am not happy. Actually I am really happy. It is just that it is not in my personality to be all gu-gu-ga-ga over anything.. Am I wrong?

What are happening to our children??

I just seen this video, linked below, about this 7 year old boy who stole his grandmother's truck, drove it up and down the highway hitting 4 cars, two of which was parked, ran into a sign, then drove into a ditch...

I'll pause to wait for all gasps and head shakes to stop *pauses* Ok...

The story is: Boy's grandmother went to her daugther's house, the boy's mother, to help her assemble a basketball goal for said boy. While in the back yard, the grandmother heard noises, ran to the front, and noticed her 2006 Durango was missing. Immediately she called the police with reasons to believe her seven year old grandson stole her truck for a joy ride.

First thing... If you seen the video, you would have also seen that lil basketball goal that they was trying to hook up.. I just hope that there is another small child in the house cause that boy is too old to be playing with that lil thing. That leads me to assume a few things: [1] There is no man in the home cause the boy's mother called her mother, the boy's grandmother. Which one can also assume that their is no male in the boy's home or in the boy's grandmother's home which means no male role model period.. [2] They are babifying the boy. No, 7 year old needs to play with toys made for babies. [3] The boy's mother does not have a lot of money. My reason for that is that in most cases children in low income homes receives some things later than other kids in middle class income homes because their parents are able to afford them later...

That boy is crying out for help.. He is begging for attention and since he sees a lot of bad people on TV he most likely assumes that he must be bad to get attention. The problem with that is that a parent can not shield their child from bad things.. Bad things are found on TV and in person. Therefore the parent must be there to steer that child in the right direction..

And where was that boy's mother?? She should have been questioned or something.. There is no need to hide behind the cameras now cause her son done already put them out there. A person's child is a reflection of that person so she have already been noted..

I pray for that family. I also pray that the boy receives help before he receives a casket.

His level of disrespect is through the roof. When asked why he did it, he responded with 'Cause I wanted to'.. He appeared to not care about the people's car that he hit.

I seriously believe that there is a reason for the boy's actions and it is not just to go on a "high speed chase". He needs serious help and fast. It is a good thing that his story is advertised because now he can hopefully get the help that he needs.

The actual video is found here: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshh02V4JQiqQQX7GrwY

This story also alerted me of something else... Why must the stories that are aired on TV always be of the bad kids? Very seldom are good children rewarded by getting their story advertised.. Maybe if children seen good children on TV then they too would want to act like them.. Ummm......

Life = Troubles???

Well, well, well.. Here I am again.. A WHOLE month later.. I told myself I would start updating my blog regularly but as I've shown that was a big load.. But in my defense, I have been REAL busy.. [1] I got a new job.. YAY for me!! It is still somewhat in the same field as I was before, minus the engineer title, but now I am a software developer for the State. So big ups to me...lol [2] I am working on getting atleast one of my novels published. I have been sending out query letters like crazy. [3] I've been getting my pencil wet. [A lil phase I just coined just now.. You know, like getting your foot wet (as in trying something new and getting started at it).. Yeah, well 'getting my pencil wet'.. Give it a while, you will get it later].. So, I'm entering A LOT of writing contests and competitions and I'm also working on freelancing with different magazines and newspapers.. Since my degree is in electrical engineering, my name is not really out there for journalism so I'm trying to do that.. [4] My best friend is having a baby and is getting married next month.. YAY!! [5] I have a boyfriend...

Now that last one, about the boyfriend, is really my reason for this blog entry..

I am just finding out that being in a relationship is hard. Now, I'm sure a lot of people have already figured it out, but I guess that memo skipped my door.. Just to clear up, I have been in numerous relationships before. Way to many, might I add. Some short-lived, some long term. Some long-distance, some constant-visits.. But I have NEVER been in one like this before. You know the ones where love is shared between both parties and talks of the future is constant. Yeah, that one..

Well me and my beau, have been serious for about a year now.. I have known him for about 4 years.. [this one year of seriousness, plus 3 others].. We met as friends, instantly hit it off, fell apart, separated, then tried it again.. This time, I have a feeling that it is going to last for the long haul... BUT It will be a ROUGH long haul..

The short version: He have A LOT of stuff going on in his life right now, so the strong bond that we once had is sort of fading away. Now, I know that that bond will return stronger than ever but the time that is needed for it to mend is becoming long and drawn out.. Deep down, there are a lot of personality traits that I have that conflicts with a relationship.. [Side Note: This will be the only time these traits will be mentioned EVER!!..lol] I'm spoiled; always got everything that I wanted, have two loving parents that always gave me a pleasurable life, and is painfully unfamiliar with the word 'no'. I'm selfish; although I have two other siblings, we each had our own and we never went without. I'm stubborn; I want what I want, when I want, how I want. Those three traits can ruin a relationship, and honestly speaking, they are ruining mine..

My boyfriend is having some family issues therefore he can not be all about me.. At one time he was; he was always there and every second of every day I knew that he loved me. Now is he occupied with his family, so now he is not always there and because of the situation with his family he is most times mad, upset, or aggravated.. I am trying to be an understanding girlfriend, but this have been going on for a while now and probably won't be over for a while. Because of my selfish-stubborn-spoiled trait, I want things to be like they was and I hate that he is not there for me like he used to so I also get mad and upset.. I love this man with all my heart, but dang can't enough be enough...

As already stated, my selfishness, stubborness, and spoiled attitude is ruining my relationship.. I tried to change my ways, but I will be 25 in EXACTLY A MONTH -- Oct. 25th.. BABY!!..lol {oh my fault got side tracked..lol}... I tried changing my ways but that is how I been my whole life so they are pretty much set in stone.. So, basically my life as I know it equals troubles..

[to be continued...]