Man.... How time flies..

I was just reading some of my past blogs and I am a trip...lol I couldn't help laughing at my dialogue and activities.. It made me sit back and think.. Time sure do change things...

All of my blogs back in 2007 was so animated.

Well now that I am 25, I can reflect on my 23-24 year old days.. ...

**reflecting**. Um.. *still reflecting*.. It's basically the same.. Well, nah, not basically the same since I have a soon-to-be husband and a soon-to be new baby.. YAY!!!

My soon-to-be son's name is Jayden.. He played me to the left last night.... I was laying down in bed and for some reason [I can't really remember why] I felt the urge to get up. So I sort of sat up, but in the midst I looked down and seen the craziest looking hump in my stomach.. I screamed so loud 'Oh, no.. I got a hump!!'

I was so scared, I just froze. I didn't want to move cause I didn't want the hump to attack the baby or anything and I was once told that stretching could cause the umbilical cord to wrap around the baby's neck so I didn't want to make any sudden moves.. I didn't know what to do, I never seen that hump before.. It looked like a sideways camel hump in the middle of my stomach. I mentioned it to my fiance, but he didn't seem to pay me any mind.. He had the nerve to ask me 'if I'm sure it wasn't his hand or something'.. I felt insulted.. I 'know' what a hand is... And that wasn't a hand..

So then I called my mom.. She started acting crazy with me too. Talking about 'do I know what I have in my stomach'.. Duh... a baby.. But I never seen that hump before.. So now to everyone.. I was the crazy one..

My fiance tried calming me down but by that time I started to panic because I realized I haven't felt my little one move in the last 4 hours.. I refused to lay down again, from fear of reproducing the hump, so I just walked around aimlessly. After about 10 minutes of craziness, I noticed another hump in my stomach and once again started screaming 'Oh, no.. Another hump'. By that time no one was paying me any mind, so I was basically screaming to myself..

It wasn't until 5 minutes after that that I realized that that crazy looking hump was my baby... I'm not too sure, but I could have sworn I heard Jayden laughing at me from inside the womb...

So I guess it begins.. 'Time to make mommy look crazy'.. I was sort of preparing myself for it once he was born because I know how babies do but I just didn't think that those lil suckers started plotting from the womb..

Now I will have to be my toes...

On.. Fatherless Homes and the N-Word...

I was doing some 'spring' cleaning in my inbox and I ran across this post I commented on a while ago.. It was on fatherless homes and the n-word...

Read on:

Posted Oct. 25, 2007
Really, the n-word is a form of disrespect. It was generated as a means to talk-down to blacks and to show them as inferior. It just so happens that the youth today have no proper guidance and somehow they have been brainwashed to think that that word is 'just a general saying'. The problem is not the 'others' saying the the n-word, but blacks saying the n-word.True, I feel the media's attention is missed focused. Although, gaining the respects of Blacks is highly important, the way they are going by it is belittling the matter. Fatherless homes is a big issue, but since it is becoming more and more common, it is being ignored. It is no longer something that people feel they should go against, but it is something that people feel they might ultimately become. Faherless homes is one of the main causes of all the black crime in the world, but because blacks doesn't see the harm they really pay it no mind.Although, I grew up in a fathered home and I feel that everyone should, many just see it as a lifestyle.

Posted April 8,2009
My mindset on fatherless homes has semi changed since then... I feel that women are also to blame for the rising number of fatherless homes.. Alot of females are having children by men without a commitment first. Women are lowering their standards and are now allowing lil boys into their bedrooms. Those same lil boys are then expected to be fathers once the child pops out, but boys will be boys.If females would put more value into themselves and stop dropping their panties to the first male, then the number of fatherless homes, in my opinion, would drop. If you actually look at the dead beat dads, most of them showed those characteristics even before the child came into the picture. If the man didn't care about you before the baby, then a new addition would not change his mindset.. So it is not solely the male's fault for the number of fatherless homes.. I feel the blame should be spread equally on the females and the males. But until females gain respect for themselves and create high standards the fatherless homes epidemic will continue to be on the rise..

My Two Cents...

OK.. Every once in a while, I ramble about things I either seen or read. Today is no different..

While bored at work, I catch up on my television shows that I am unable to watch at home because they come on at crazy freaking hours when I am ALWAYS busy... SHOUT OUT: To whoever thought of online TV. I owe you lots.. TRUST!!!.. lol Anyways.. Today I watched Making The Band 4..

I used to be a regular watcher way back in the day.. OK.. Well not way back but I started watching it during Season 3. My first episode was when that heavy girl with the pink shirt sung her butt out of Deborah Cox's 'Nobody Supposed to be Here'.. Dang girl had me in tears...lol

But I watched the show that came on last night a few minutes ago.. Needless to say, Q is getting on my freaking nerves... I don't know what is up with him, but that victim attitude is starting to get old. He is always blowing up on people and trust it is NOT a good look...

On yesterday's show, he got in a fight with Brian. Now I don't know who Q thinks he is but the image he portrayed got him looking like a lil 'b'.. It's time for him to really grow up.. I'm not sure what got into him but it must be that 'Poor Man's Disease'....

I really don't like seeing people like that because it makes them look ignorant.. The way he was carrying on is ridiculous.. He should really be ashamed of himself...

Now, I don't know if that was all a front to make good TV but for his sake.. I just hope he's a really good actor....

the Poor Man's Disease - -

Times are hard..

People are losing their jobs. Families are splitting apart. Violence is at a max.

With this current recession, alot of people are developing the 'Poor Man's Disease'.. The Poor Man's Disease is nothing to clown about. It's symptoms include depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, feelings of loneliness, and anger....

I've been watching the news and it seems that everyday someone is becoming a victim of this disease. I say victim because it is indeed deadly. Numerous families have lost their lives as a result of lay-offs, rent increases, and economy downfall. Numerous individuals have lost their lives to the system as the result of criminal activity, negligence, or stupidity.

Things in this world are not as they once were. People are in constant fears of being laid off. People are in constant fears of starting lives as a couple out of fear for the future.

The key to overcoming this disease is God and communication. Philippines 4:13 says 'Through God ALL things are possible'. Proverbs 3:5 says 'Trust in the Lord with all thy heart, and lean not unto thy own understanding'.

Honestly, I think the world is like it is because society is breaking away from God.

[to be continued]