Me...

There is this lil crazy thing called 'Life'. Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it is to make you happy and sometimes it is to teach you a lesson. I was taught a very big lesson these last couple of days. 'Don't take anything for face value' and 'Everything comes back'.

Everyone lives their lives based on the perception of others. If they say that they don't, they are either in denial or lying. A person's actions is determinant on the potential reactions of others. From this day forward, I will live my life for me. Not to gain approval but simply for my happiness. Cause after it is all said and done...... 'In the morning, I will still be me'.

Why Did I Get Married??

That movie was the BEST!!!! I really loved it. I seen it Friday night and I am going to go see it again this weekend.

What I really loved about the movie was that it was real. The events in the movie actually happens in real life and in marriages but it is never showcased.

EVERYONE SHOULD GO OUT AND SEE THE MOVIE CAUSE IT IS WELL WORTH THE MONEY FOR THE TICKET...

When I was watching this movie I got really emotional cause I had just broken up with my boyfriend. Things just made a turn for the worse and we called it quits. I guess we both knew that it was coming soon cause the last 30 days has been really rocky. Anywhoo.... the movie taught me one valuable lesson: It doesn't matter how much you love someone or how much you want to be with someone, sometimes it may not be meant to be...

I guess this is really turning out to be a real good birthday month. This whole month has took a turn for the worst. I can't wait until Oct 25th so I can start a new chapter in my life. Since I can't wait for New Year's to do a resolution....[although I never really kept any resolution that I ever made in the past... I think that longest one I kept lasted for about a week].... I will make one now. The 25th will start my 24th year of life. During this last 24 years, I have made a lot of mistakes but I am thankful for all of them cause they all taught me a lesson and were blessings in disguises. Even my current breakup was a blessing in disguise. But enough about that.

I think that everyone should really evaluate their lives. So many times people get set in their ways that they don't realize that they are the ones holding them back. Instead of having a birthday celebration month, I will have a life evaluating month. My b-day is in 10 more days and I will use that time wisely and take full advantage of it. I will make a new plan for my life... I won't consist of my work or financial situation it will be solely based on my heart, mind, and soul.

"It doesn't matter how much gold you have cause if you have coal on your eyes you will never see the sparkle..."

These 10 days will be used to evaluate my life, identify the 'coal' and work on dismissing them from my life. I will start fresh in my 24th year and I will see my gold sparkle....

Much luv...

America's Next Top 'Letdown'

I just got done watching ANTM.... and I was highly disappointed by the make overs. What in the hell was Tyra thinking? There was not one decent hairstyle.

They was all gloats talking about Ebony's hairstyle. The girl look like something off of the Adam's Family. I don't know if it is the fault of the hair stylers or if its Tyra's fault but someone is definitely at fault.

Then Salicha, or however you spell her name, poor hair is a pure diseaster. She looks like a mop. Maybe I am harsh, but just looking at their heads is harsher.

What gets me is that they all seem all happy about their hair, Salicha should really not be happy. If I was her, I would sue for deflamation of character...lol

All and all them hairstyles is a big disappointment. Then they cut off of Lisa's hair and now she just have a head full of short curls. Trust me, it is not cute.

I probably have something bad to say about every single one of their heads, but just to sum it up.....It was a BIG letdown....... I promise you, that show gets worse every season....

October 9th

OK..... Birthday Recap
If I had to sum it up in three words.. I would have to say... An awful disaster... [Pitiful, I know]

This weekend I had plans on seeing 'Feel the Noise' well none of the theaters up here was showing it. Can you say 'a big letdown'? So this weekend I ended up doing nothing...

I've come to the conclusion that having a birthday month in Missouri is a waste of time..
Well better luck next year.... I will just wait for the 25th and have a regular BirthDAY just like every other Dick, John, and Harry......

This Done Took the Cake......

I just read an article about a lady who was sued by record companies for over $200k. The lady went to trial because she downloaded and shared copyrighted music.

That is the biggest bull I ever heard. Record companies who generate millions a year in record sales and concert tickets sued a single mother who lives off of pay check to pay check.. That is ridiculous. I should walk up to every single record company exec and slap them in the face. They should really be ashamed of themselves.

They said that they was trying to teach consumers a lesson. I guess they think that they are doing a good thing. Let's all stand up and give all record company execs a round of applause for such great efforts.......... NOT... Those fools derserves a round of something, but it is definitely not an applause.

I really feel for the lady cause $200k is not pocket change.

I am neither confirming nor denying that I download music but that article only would make me do it more. I would do it simply out of spite. From this day forth, I will never buy a real CD again..... They tried teaching consumers a lesson, well I will definitely teach them one too.....

Who's with me????

the Scandal that is.... Our Airplane System

Ok.... First off.. There is a word for the airplane system, but I can't think of it off of the top of my head, nor do I feel like looking it up so for now it will be 'airplane system' [I thing it is Aero.... something... but anywho..]

My mom called me yesterday and told me that I should buy my plane ticket for Thanksgiving Holiday now cause the longer I wait the higher the prices will be. That is because airlines are using smaller planes which will result in less seats thus creating a higher demand for a smaller supply. Ok, now there reason for using smaller planes.....[ok, brace yourself cause this bull shitz will knock you off of your seats] ... is because since Hurricane Katrina, all of the large planes are used in Iraq. [I am not sure what for, but neither do I care]

It is just another way for President Bush to completely undermine the respect for Americans and pay greater respect to those who attacked our country some 6 years ago. I was one of the main ones petitioning for his impeachment 7 years ago.... [yeah, yeah, 9-11 happened only 6 years ago, but I knew that Bush was crap so I was trying to get him out early...but not only did I fail, but the idiots, from this moment on will be called Americans, voted him back in for another term..... (I am still shaking my head about that one)]

What sense does it make to go to smaller planes. If the people behind the decisions would look back in time, they will find the reason for going to bigger planes. True it may have been just to steal money from working consumers, but still there were reasons. I really don't see the logic of cutting the plane sizes right before the holidays. It just shows the lack of respect for Americans.

This world is getting so economical. Everything is about making money and having a lot of it. What happened to respect, gratitude, or consideration? What happened to anything that didn't have anything to do with greed?

Then my mom also said that because of the lack of seats, the delays at airports could be greater during the holiday season.

This whole situation is a scandal in disguise and Americans will just sit and let it happen.

If I didn't live an 11-hour drive from my hometown, I would ban the whole airplane system all together.. But due to my lazyness and my hatred for driving, I will be one of the suckers who have to pay double for a plane ticket and also one of the suckers who will be walking around the airport with my head chopped off cause I still have 2 more hours in my layover.

October 5th

Thank God It's Friday....
It seems like this week just flew by. I woke up this morning happy and ready-to-go but it didn't click why until I looked at the calender. IT'S FRIDAY!!!!! This day just sort of snuck up on me. I really wasn't paying attention to the days and... Viola'.......

Now back to my gruelsome Birthday month... If I didn't express how much of a disaster it was, let me take the time to do that now. Yesterday, I didn't nothing... Well... [let me take that back cause I did do a lil something] I started me a group on MSN Groups. It is a work in progress. I didn't know that much stuff went into starting a group, but its coming together. But, ummmm, other than that... I did nothing besides making me some burnt nasty cookies.

I brought some cookies dough from a fundraiser and it came in Wednesday. I had plans on baking some Wed night, but I was distracted by my phone and plus the dough was frozen rock solid so I sort of forgot about baking some. Well, yesterday, it was on my mind as soon as I walked through the door. I took the dough out of the fridge and placed it on the counter... [just some I wouldn't forget]... Finally, it came that time to back them.... I put them in the oven and kept checking on them like every three minutes cause I like my cookies to be soft and chewy. Well, I set my timer on my oven for 4 minutes, but I really only had plans to keep it in there for 2.. [yeah-yeah-yeah.... I should have just set it for 2 minutes then, but whatever] So, I got caught up in the TV and when I finally thought about them cookies, I dashed up, ran to the oven, and was disappointed to find dark cookies in the oven. ..... [Let's just say that my night was ruined from that moment on] ..... I looked at the timer and I only had a couple of seconds left...[That's when I started beating myself up about the whole 4 minute thing] I hoped and I prayed that although the cookies was a lil dark that they will still be nice, soft and chewy, but my wishes did not come true. Five minutes later, I checked my cookies and they were hard as a rock..... [well not really hard as a rock, but they sure wasn't to my likings]... I nicely took one look at those cookies and one look at my trash can and the rest was history..... It was very depressing...

The rest of the night was just like my cookies.... a crying shame...

Well, since today is Friday... [and the first Friday in my Birthday month] it should be a lil better night... Well heres to hoping...

October 4th

Well, so far my birthday month has been a complete bust. I am really considering scrapping the whole idea and going back to a b-day week celebration.

I don't even remember what I did last night.. so that in itself means that I did pretty much nothing. I don't know if yesterday was named National Call Me Day of what, but it seemed like everyone that I knew called me yesterday. That is probably why I didn't do anything cause I kept getting interrupted by the ringing sound.. I would try to do something then... my phone would ring.

To some the phone ringing might not pose a problem, but everyone that I know seems to want me to pay attention whenever they talk. If I can master the art of 'fake communicating' then I would be in business.

Anywho.... I'll try it again today although I really don't feel like doing anything. [This day at work is seriously dragging by] I may just charge this week to the game and officially start my birthday month off Saturday. I think I may go see Feel the Noise. I believe it is coming out tomorrow. It stars Omarion as rapper who learns to dance. [Yeah, pretty much You Got Served in the club, but hey.... I'm still going to support] Something that I find rather odd.... it is produced by Jennifer Lopez. Now I don't know when she got her producer's license.....lol but I am a lil skeptical. Just because you can act, that don't mean that you can produce. But I'll see if that stands true come Saturday....

Oh, yesterday, I did watch 5 minutes of the I Love New York 2 Casting Call show. Even though I know that it is only for entertainment and not for matchmaking purposes, I will still watch. Some of them dudes that will be on the show is definitely not New York's type. Most of them look corny or gay and they even have a midget on it. I know what you are thinking...but yes a midget.

Well better luck tomorrow...

the Attack of the Serial Cable...

Have you ever tried taking a serial cable apart? If not, don't try it.

Attached to every serial cable should be the note 'DON'T TRY taking THIS apart EVER'. Ok, one of my co-workers asked me to look at a transducers - - load cell indicator (I don't really know what it is...lol but it is used to measure pressure and torque and all of that good stuff]. It was not working and it needed to be. So, Miss-Captain-Save-da-Day to the rescue...[that's me...lol] So I read through the manual and did every troubleshooting thing in the dang book, but nothing.... The thing still ain't work. So I took the connector cable apart and found the problem. The dang thing was connected wrong.

Well to avoid taking apart their connection... [ok, deep down I was scared. You see their connections were soldered together and I already had some life-threatening experiences with the soldering iron so I try to stay far far away] I decided that I would use an old serial cable, take it apart, reconnect my wires the right way, and then try it again. Well, it sounds easy but it is not.

The serial cable is a monster in disguise. I cut, I plucked, I gutted, I tore and the dang serial cable is still together. I was using a pocket knife to try to ply into the cable connector cause I couldn't find a gut-cutting knife. I have been at it for about 15 minutes and I have already broken a nail [I love my nails cause they all are, well were, a nice length...so of course I had to take a minute and mourn my nail...lol] and I have cut myself about 5 times [and counting]....

So to all who ever decides to take apart a serial cable.... DON'T..

I guess now I have to do what the manufacturers failed to do..... post a warning (see below):

Disclaimer: Don't try to take apart a serial cable. It may result in broken nails, minor cuts and bruises, A LOT of time wasted and the occasional co-worker peeping their head in asking if you are alright...

October 3rd

Well last night was very exciting... [well as exciting as things can get in Missouri]

I sat back and watched a movie and popped some popcorn. ... I know, I know, it may not be that whoop-de-doo, but it is a big step up from my usual nights after work.

I watched Troy. I must say that I was greatly impressed. At first glance, the sound of Troy is a dead reminder of the truama that I went through in American History and English IV during high school. I must of had to read over a million stories that concerned Hercules, Helen of Troy.... the Odyssey. Let's just say that when I graduated, I left all notions of the epics behind. [It was not my most interesting topic] But the movie was really good.

Don't let the beginning words fool you. The movie started with written dialog on the screen... [It pretty much reminded me of the movies that we had to watch along with the stories in English IV] but that was short lasted. The movie was filled with a whole lot of action. I had to turn my head a few times cause the directors ain't left nothing for imagination. They showed the swords being stabbed in the chest, they showed the blood, they showed it all. But one thing that should be noted is that ARCHILLES is the man. He was a beast. Don't step to Archilles and try to fight cause he will merk you. He lived by his own laws and they had no other option but to let him be him and follow. He had strength, power, pretty much everything that a girl would want. And of course it helped that Brad Pitt played him. [That man sure knows how to full some armor...lol]

I shed tears..... I laughed..... I definitely LOVED Troy.

Then I had to catch Sunday Best on BET. It is similar to American Idol except they are looking for the next gospel star. Me personally think that a good gospel singer is the best singers to listen too. They sing with such emotion and they make you feel what they are feeling.... I just love them.

There were a couple of singers that blew the roof off the building. I don't know them by name, but they did their thing. Last night was just the auditions so they showed the cans and the cannots. Honestly I was a lil dissappointed with the turn out. There were some good singers but there were a lot more so-so, borderline bad, singers. Anywho... They picked 20 people. 18 by qualification, 1 by online viewers choice, and 1 by judges pick. The judges tripped me out. Mary Mary, specifically Erica, is a fool. She kept it real. Some of those people left you speechless, so she basically just passed it to Bebe. Bebe, he let you know if your outfit wasn't on point. Oooh... It is hosted by Kirk Franklin and he is a fool. He would introduce the people.... 'there goes Steve and his blue suit'.... I was rolling.. But some peeps was down bad for their outfit choice. You are suppose to wear your Sunday Best people.... NOT straight-off-the-rack-just-going-to-throw-something-on. Some people came with their prom dresses, their right-out-the-club outfits, candy apple red suits, bright-azz blue suits, ..... It was a hot mess.

Because I am a big fan of gospel music ........ I will definitely tune next Tuesday.

Well, last night was definitely better than Monday night. It seems like this birthday month is starting to look up. I wonder what tonight will bring?????

October 2nd

Well, it is Day 2 of my fabulous B-Day month...

Unfortunately, I did NOTHING yesterday. You would be amazed how fast time flies once you get off of work.. [It really is quite aggravating cuz the 9 hours at work goes by so slowly, it is a crying shame, but yet once I get home and is able to relax; I could blink and 4 hours would have disappeared.... Actually the whole time passing system is starting to get on my nerves....lol But that is a whole other post]

Like I was saying before my wandering thoughts got the best of me, I did nothing. I got so caught up in the TV..... The CW has it Season Premieres last night..... [It was long awaited]

Here is my Scopes:
Girlfriends: Joan sure knows how to run a man off doesn't she? It seems like the chick don't want a man, she wants a puppet to obey her every word, a sex toy to help produce some babies, and a bank account to buy a ring and the perfect wedding.... lol. They could have at least had Mya had the baby. It seems like no time passed between the Season Finale and Premiere. She looks as if she is only 4 months or so. Finally Lynn is doing her thang. I sort of like the way she decorated Joan's place. Oh, back to Joan.... When Aaron said 'Just so we are clear you are not to talk to me in front of other people or in private like that ever again'.. I was like... 'Welcome back 50's' Home boy jumped straight Ike.... I could have sworn that I seen his hand raised....lol. But I didn't like the cliff hanger. So what now, do Aaron have to be shipped out to Iraq? That would be messed up cause he could be gone for months. And what? Is the engagement off? It best not be...Joan has waited years for a man and it might be over cause of President Bush.... Aaron better fake a illness and stay and Cali.....lol But all in all, I enjoyed the show I will definitely watch it next Monday.... [the CW Network... 8:00pm (Central Time)]

the Game: I don't know what to say. I loved the Season Finale...... BUT I was disappointed with the Premiere. I mean, I watched the Finale about 5 times..[I DVR'd it] I loved Melanie's performance and when Irreplaceable came on... I was like YEAH!!!! I LOVED IT!!!!!! But now to the Premiere... The acting was not that good. Melanie could have played that part a lil bit more. She had it walking into Drew's face, but as soon as she got there I was like 'Whoa, what happened to the acting?'...lol... She jumped in her face and said something...[i forgot exactly what] but then they started going back a forth saying 'What!" loudly. I was like 'Next scene, please. (Holding up my finger as if motioning for a waiter).. Then when she got in Derwin's face all I could do was put my head down... Then when she was talking to the ladies...(Why am I lost for names?? I can't think of their names to save my life, but you know who I am talking about) I was like... 'Can someone please find a Black girl?' Derwin got a lil crazy at the end. Throwing stuff and what not... I was like 'Hold up, patna, don't break your stuff cause you will have to clean it up'. He played his part alright, but his acting could have been a lil better. He could have acted differently to the ladies and also when Melanie was going to get her things.. I don't know what that preview was all about, but that scene with Malik and ...........oh, Tasha... one of those ladies name is Tasha.....[it just came to me]....lol............... Melanie best to have been a dream cause if she sleeps with him her hoe tail better leave Med school alone and stick to Prostitution....lol But I will still watch the next show, even though it wasn't the greatest.


Now, back to my B-DAY Month..... Yesterday was a bust so I will try it again..... well that is if Beauty and the Geek and Sunday Best doesn't consume my time. [It's a shame how TV is my sole source of excitement.... I need a life...lol] Anywho... I'll try it again tonight... Hopefully I'm successful.

Brittney loses custody.....

All I can do is shake my head.

It takes a lot for a mother to lose custody of her children. I really don't understand Brittney. It is just bad that it has gotten as bad as it did. Unfortunately, I blame her parents. Brittney got into the showbiz career early. She did Mickey Mouse Club and right in the studio at a very young age. Like most parents who had nothing, her parents seen this as 'their' opportunity. Those type of parents allow their children to do anything just as long as they can collect the check.

Not to down Brittney in any way, but I am happy that those children is not in her custody. Look at the actions that she displayed in the past. The poor girl has shown her private area numerous times, she has shaved her head bald in a spontaneous act, has been tested to have used illegal drugs, and the list goes on....

You would think that her parents would help her in her troubled times, but as far as I could see they stood in the shadows. What parent would want to see their child go down in flames like that? My mom, would have forced me to live in her house and would have stood over me everyday until I seen the error in my ways and changed.

Although Brittney is the one seeing all of the consequences, her parents are to blame. I just hope that this situation will allow Brittney to see her faults and will give her the determination to change. She needs to be worried about her well-being and her children than about putting out an album.

It's Finally Here...

October is finally here. It seemed like it would never get here. Well in this fabulous month, I will turn 24. I will also prepare to move back home......YEAH!!!! It's not that I hate it here... wait.. I do hate it here....lol... but it is just that I am ready to go back home where my friends and family are..

Anywho... I am now claiming October as my Birthday month. Although it has always been my birthday month, [duh, its the month that I was born in] I will celebrate every day of this month.. STARTING NOW!!! Well not actually now, cause I am stuck between these four walls that I call a job, but I will as soon as the five o'clock hour hits. I am not sure what I will do yet, but it will be something. It won't be nothing big, however, cause for one: I don't have all of that money to be big-pimpin' it for 31 days and two: It will get tiring and old quick if I do something big every single day for 31 days... So I will just hang low and do something small everyday.

I might.....BIG MIGHT.... Go purchase me a Wii today. I know, I know.... 23 going on 24 year old with a Wii??? But if you haven't played it, it is well worth the $250.

Well its time for me to get back to work so I can bust this joint come 4:59 ...[Just cause it is my b-day month I will leave a lil earlier....lol]